i made one of my kids cry today. so, out of no reason, he searched my backpack and wanted to keep one of my stuff so badly. he couldn’t have it. even if he’d cried his eyes out, i wouldn’t let him have it. "you’re cheap! you’re bad!" he shouted then sat in a corner. i swear i was trying to explain why he couldn’t have it for almost half an hour, but he was so stubborn! and so… out of my mouth in high-pitched tone, "you have to learn that you can’t always have what you want!" swear i almost cried too. i still don’t know why i said that. it makes me feel awful. especially because he was still sulky when i left him. maybe i should let him have it, but then again it would only spoil him and God knows what else he’ll want to keep next time. i learned my lesson too today that… yeah, one can’t always have what one wants. life isn’t that pretty or easy. so deal with it.